Steven and lying

okay he finally shut up but he says he doesn't want to be my friend because he can't trust me. Whatever. I told him ONE lie and I also told him that I think it's okay to lie sometimes and because of that now he thinks I am a big liar. I told him the truth by telling him that I lie if it will spare someones feelings and because I was honest about lying he turned on me.

Sorry but 

TO BE HONEST I'M A LIAR 

is one of my favorite quotes because i do lie and make things up sometimes its part of being an writer and having imagination. Sometimes reality just isn't fun so I go inside my head to a fantasy world. 

I don't really care if he thinks that lying is wrong. And yes I will admit that sometimes lying is wrong but I also believe that in some situations it's okay to lie a little. 

I only told him ONE lie and he's still bugging me about it. 

I lied to him yeah and I'm sorry about that. 

But I can't do much more then say that I'm sorry. 

I can't change that I lied to him and I'm not gonna sit there and listen to him lecture me about it.

What gives him the right to tell me that I'm in the wrong? 

I am not in the wrong!! 

Yes it is better to tell the truth but again I think that sometimes it is okay to lie. 

Not all the time. But depending on the reason and the situation I think that sometimes it is okay to lie. 

X bf

Yeah I dated this guy for like a week or so and then dumped him and it's a good thing I did. 

I had lied to him to spare his feelings and out of fear about him knowing the truth and when he found out he started lecturing me like a child and saying that lying is wrong unless you are lying to stop someone who is suicidal. 

I'm sorry but there are times when lying is okay. If you lie to spare someone's feelings I don't think there is anything wrong with that. But he sat there saying that it's wrong and that it's better to tell the truth. 

It's not like I lied to him about me. I lied to him about my ex Jamie because I was gonna dump Jamie and so I figured there no point in telling Steve about Jamie because it would just start shit. So instead I lied to him. 

basically he said that telling him the truth would have hurt less. But my lying wouldn't have bothered him if I hadn't dumped him the same day I confessed about the lying. I am still trying to tell him he has no right to lecture me. I am not saying that lying to him was right. But I do believe there are times when it is okay to lie. 

He is not gonna change me or change my mind about lying. 

So he should stop wasting his breath cuz it is annoying me and pissing me off. 

Miley Cyrus and Disney

Yeah First of all Miley Cyrus is a whore!! There are enough Vids on youtube to prove that. I think that all she wants is attention and bad publicity to get rid of the Hannah Image. But you know what? Hannah is what made her famous and she should not be ashamed of that. And trying to get rid of the good girl image tells me that she is ashamed to be seen as a good girl. Disney will not show Hannah on T.V. anymore because they don't want people to think they support Miley and they don't want Miley getting money from the reruns. 

I swear Disney channel should just be canceled!! All the good shows are gone and none of the kids today even know what good shows are. I mean the shows that deal with real issues and teen problems. Like Lizzie McGuire and That's so Raven and the other shows that used to come on Disney Channel. 

It is meaningless now so I think they should just cancel the channel. All they have now is stupid shows that star these wanna be actors and almost everyone of them tries to come out with songs too. I wish Disney channel still was meaningful. 

Jamie

Okay obviously I was really stupid to go out with Jamie again. But I dumped him again. And for the last time. Though it's true I did love him I realized that sometimes love isn't enough. Sometimes it's just not meant to be no matter how much you love someone. He said he would be my friend and then started blaming me saying he was gonna be alone forever and that it was my fault because I didn't love him. I told him that if he didn't move on then that was his choice and he couldn't put the blame on me. I may have dumped him but I am not responsible for what he does after that. If he says or does something then that is his fault not mine. If he chooses to remain bitter and not move on to try and find someone else then that is his fault for not trying. He can't blame me for his choices. Though he will try and I will ignore it. He decided after that that he didn't want to be my friend after all so he said goodbye and then blocked me from his facebook which is stupid because I didn't even do anything to him! All I did was break up with him and decided to move on to someone new. We both need to move on to new people. We tried everything to make it work but it just wasn't meant to be. He also has to realize we have tried dating about 5 times now and I just have been thinking about it along with the help of a new guy I came to realize that even though Jamie and I did love each other that isn't always enough. If it was meant to happen we wouldn't have broken up so much and had so much trouble. Love isn't easy but it should never be that hard. You shouldn't have to keep fighting to make it work. I have already moved on and am spending time with a guy named Steven and he is a great guy. He is sweet and funny and differant from any guy I have dated and the fact that I have never dated him before is even better because it's a fresh start for the both of us. It took a while but I finally learned my lesson. 

Guys

It's a known fact that Christina Aguilera is one of my role models. Now here are the reason: 

1. She has said before that she would feel uncomfortable being conservative and covering her body because she likes her body the way it is. I agree. I don't think girls should have to cover their bodies or tone down thier style choices just because Some guys are pervs and don't know how to control themselves. 

2. Her songs hit me on a personal level like her song 'Can't hold us down' Which is basically a song about the double standards in society about guys and girls. Guys think they can touch girls if they dress a certain way and show some skin. They get called a whore not just by guys but by churches and other people too. Just because they aren't open minded and think its inappropriate doesn't mean that it is. And her song 'I'm ok' about how her father mistreated her mother it speaks to me because my father does the same to my mother. He is mostly abusive mentally now. But she stays with him because she can't see past her love for him. And I swore I was never gonna be with a man that treated me like that. No one is gonna mistreat me just because I'm a woman and they think they are superior because they are men. Well  without woman there would be no children!! Woman carry and give birth to children. I'd like to see a man go through that kind of pain and see how he likes it. See if he would still treat a woman like crap. But those are only two of the songs that speak to me. Almost all of her songs have meaning for me. 

3. She stands up for what she believes in just like I do. You should never give up or give in just because everyone around you is telling you that your wrong. Because what if your the only one that's right? You Just gotta keep saying what your saying until they finally understand or until they drop the subject because they realize they aren't gonna corrupt you. DON'T LET PEOPLE CHANGE YOU!! 

4. She supports gay people. I support them too!! No one should tell people that they can't be in love. My dad is gay. I don't hate him because he's gay. I hate him because he's mean to my mom and because he cheated on her with another guy and she caught them and yet she allowed him to stay with us and he still treats her like crap. I lost respect for him a long time ago but that has nothing to do with the fact that he's gay. 

5. She has dad issues. Well I don't know if she still has them but I know I do. Mainly because of the whole double standard thing and the whole him treating my mom and me and my bro like crap for so long. And never showing us any respect because he thinks that he doesn't have to. Just because we are his kids doesn't mean that he doesn't need to respect us. And it doesn't mean that he is better or smarter then us just because he's the dad and he's older. Actually he didn't even graduate high school and me and my bro did so I bet there are things we know more about then he does. But it's like he refuses to even consider that. So yeah that's why I have dad issues. I have never been daddy's little girl but that was his own fault. 

So yeah there are lots of things me and Christina Aguilera have in common so that's why I like her plus it's a big reason why she's my role model. We have the same personality and the same morals. And we believe in the same things. I grew up listening to her music and I'm proud to say I still listen to all of her albums today. Even though the CD stripped is a couple years old the songs still touch me and I still listen to them. 

I'm glad I grew up in the 90's listening to the real pop music artists cause today's pop stars have no idea what real pop music is and neither do any of their fans. I wish they would bring back the good songs. But you know I love the fact that Britney spears and Christina Aguilera are still on top almost ten years after their first albums came out. That proves to me that they are the real deal unlike all these other wanna be's that the Disney channel is putting out and trying to sell all of us. The Disney stars sing crap pop music. I fell sorry for this generation because they have no idea what real music is. 

Justin Beiber and the baby issue

First of all i want to say that JB is a teen boy and he will never admit that it's his baby even if he knows it is his. Second is that a DNA test will prove the truth. If he is the father he needs to be  a man and step up\ and be there for it. If he isn't the father then he needs to drop it and move on and not try to get even by suing the woman who is the mother. All that will do is leave a baby in the foster care system and that is not a good place to be. So I hope to does the mature thing and drops the law suit against her if he isn't the father. And if he is the father he has no right to sue her just for pointing out the truth. I have heard that there r JB fans that call her and threaten her and harrass her just cause she says JB is the father of her baby. Just because you don't like the truth doesn't mean that its a lie. And why would he even cave to the paternity test unless he did have sex with her. I really hope it turns out to be his baby because then a lot of girls in the US would realize hes not as innocent as he claims to be. Its very clear that I don't like JB but the main reason is because hes just annoying and hes everywhere. I swear you can't go into a store without seeing him all over at least 3 magizines. So I really don't like him. But if he is the father of that baby then he needs to help her raise it and not just send child support. Paying a check doesn't make you a father. And that baby has a right to know his real father. And BTW if she was lying then why does she continue to say its his baby even with the fans threatning her? And there are lots of teen boys out there having sex. It wouldn't surprise me that JB is on that list too. Selena Gomez broke up with him over this baby stuff. I know how she feels. My x lied saying that his x was pregnant but that it wasn't his baby. But you know what turns it that it was his baby and once she proved it he got back together with her. That hurt because he lied to me about it. I don't care that he has a daughter what i care about is that he lied to me about it.

Christina Aguilera Dirty official video (high quality)

WARNING: RATED H FOR HOTTNESS!!!!

Christina Aguilera - The Voice Within

Christina Aguilera - What A Girl Wants

This song talks about a guy that gave his girl time to figure out what her heart wanted. Kinda like with me. I broke up with my x Jamie to try and figure what my heart was telling me about him. I dated another guy while I was trying to figure it out but while I dated him I couldn't deny that I still had feelings for Jamie. And of course DG was a complete idiot to me while I dated him anyway so I dumped him and got back together with Jamie. And Now I am happy because I am with the man I truely love. And there is no doubt in my mind now. I DO LOVE JAMIE!!!

Christina Aguilera - Can't Hold Us Down

This is one of my favorite songs. Can't hold us down by christina aguilera. It's also so true. Especially in my house. My father runs our house with a double standard letting my brother do things and then telling me i can't do the things he's letting my brother do. I am 22 years old and Iam old enough and mature enough to make my own decisions! like I can have a boy in my room. I mean its not like I'm gonna have sex with him. I mean they have rules for the house and one of them is no sex which is fine with me but since he won't let me have a boy in my room that just says he don't trust me the way he trusts me brother. My brother has a girl living in his room! Dad let her move in. And I know they having sex and seeing each others bodies!! But yet he won't let me even have a boy in my room for a couple hours. That just screams I DON'T TRUST YOU. So yeah it's a double standard in the world and in my house. But at least some people don't have to deal with it every fucking day like I do!!