BETRAYED!!

 

I just found out that my bff is a false friend. She was always trying to turn me against people and then behind my back she was turning them against me and lying to them about me. She sent me messages on facebook. 

thanks too you debra can onely see beth down here now. and you can keep your dirty ass looks for somebody who gives a fuck what you think. i didnt want it too be this way for beths love of debra but im not letting her be treated that way that was realy childish (sis) were over for good 

This is basically saying that she wants my parents and not me and if she cuts me out then she has to cut them out too cuz they are my parents and she can't have them!! Plus I have no freaking clue what she's talking about and the cops can see that she got nasty with me first!!

Hey if u want to end the friendship then fine but I want ALL my movies back and I want the black arm warmers back too and I better get them back before the month is over. 

I sent her this because she has my arm warmers. I got them from a friend when I was a freshman in high school before I met her. So they have sentimental value to me. Ever since she saw them she has mentioned that she wants them and has asked me several times if she can have them. I said no but that she could borrow them because I trusted her to give them back. I also said she had to keep track on them. As soon as I let her borrow them she ditched me and after sending her this message she sent me: 

any of my property you want too try and steel you will have too produce a reciet for that item with your name on it, and if you contact us again in ANY way were calling the cops were tired of your drama... alot of ppl are. you tryed brow beating me into leaving jesse cauz you were jealous and failed. grow up and move the fuck on 

Again a message where she gets nasty with me first!! It is MY property she is the one that thinks she can keep them. She knows I don't have a receipt and that they were given to me. I plan to call the cops first thing in the morning. 

For the past 48 hours Tina and Jesse has given me and my family no choice about anything and has put us in a corner forcing us to accept this. 

She was NEVER  a real friend and only came over when she wanted something or wanted to rant. She used me and my parents and my parents have spent enough Money on them to buy those arm warmers ten times over so she owe's us money. All i want is those arm warmers back because it's obvious that she only wants them because she thinks that she needs to take something from me to feel like she won and I'm not gonna let her win or have that kind of control over me!! 

As for brow beating her.......Every time she came over here she bashed Jesse's name making him look bad. She wanted us to listen but she held a grudge against us when we told her our opinion about what she was saying. They say one thing to my mom and then get nasty with me. And I can show the cops that They got nasty with me first and that they are the ones that are trying to continue this by not allowing me to have my things and also putting us in a corner by dictating to us about what's going to happen and that we can't do anything about it! She wants to end the friendship then fine she is losing the only REAL friend she ever had I'm  done trying to save her and be there for her. She blew it for a final time!! She's gonna give me my shit back and then leave me and MY family alone!! 

I also sent a message to Jesse before getting Tina's message about not contacting them again. I tried to explain and work things out and do the right thing but she turned him against me and at least I can say that I tried to set things right. AND AS FOR FUCKING DRAMA I AM NOT THE ONE WHO STARTED ALL THIS SHIT SHE DID!! I DIDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING TO HER OTHER THEN TELL HER MY OPINION AFTER SHE MADE JESSE LOOK LIKE A ASSHOLE SEVERAL TIMES!!! 

I'M ALSO NOT THE ONE THAT FORCED A DIABETIC RECOVERING FROM SURGERY TO CHASE AFTER HER KID AND LOOK FOR HER PHONE THAT SHE LOST IN OUR HOUSE WHEN IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN HER THAT WAS DOING IT.

Mom says that she thinks Tina blames me for a lot of the things that happened to her lately.  She took a bottle of pills there is NO way that she can blame that on me cuz for one i wasn't even there!! And two she put them in her mouth and swallowed them knowing her daughter and boyfriend was around. She is the one that had a pity party and tried to kill herself I had nothing to do with that!! But okay That's fine she can blame me all she wants but I had nothing to do with it. How could I when She only came over to bitch and then left!! She never stuck around to talk about anything else.. She came. She ranted and then she left! 

She never came over just to visit and half the time she came over she would wait until mom was off so that Mom would have to chase after her kid for her! 

SHE IS THE ONE TRYING TO TURN EVERYONE AGAINST EACH OTHER SO THAT WE DON'T GET ALONG! SO SHE IS THE ONE CAUSING ALL THE DRAMA AND SHE'S CAUSING MORE BY NOT COOPERATING WITH ME AND REFUSING TO GIVE ME MY STUFF BACK. THAT IS HER CAUSING DRAMA NOT ME!! ME ASKING HER FOR MY STUFF IS NOT CAUSING DRAMA IT IS MY RIGHT BECAUSE IT BELONGS TO ME AND I AM NOT GONNA LET HER KEEP IT! 

She only wants it because she feels that she needs to take something from me! She took her daughter from me and that hurts bad enough so she is not taking those arm warmers from me!! She needs the drama to feel alive and the police will be on my side cause I already called them tonight I just gotta call them again in the morning and then I will tell them everything. But It's really sad that I have to get the police involved just because Tina want's to be a bitch and refuse to give me my stuff!! 

I don't feel safe anymore and it's because of them. 

I AM THE VICTIM HERE! 

Tina has made me and my family victims by doing this to us. 

Forcing their will on us without giving us a choice in the matter and then bullying me and threatening the police just because I am emailing them and trying to figure this stuff out! 

They send me emails and then block me on facebook so that I can't email back to question them and that right them corners me and leaves me with no choice but to accept what they want! 

That's why I called the police. I feel trapped and battered and cornered and I am not gonna be a victim!! 

Especially when I didn't even do anything! I WILL bring up the fact that Tina owe's us money and that that alone should make her give back the arm warmers since I can't replace them!! 

She know's they are from hot topic and they are gothic and that's why she liked them and wanted them. 

Even if I did give them to her her ending our friendship gives me the right to demand them back because they were my property first and I only gave them to her because i trusted her and she promised not to lose them. 

But again I did not give them to her. She heard what she wanted to here but I have witnesses that can verify that I had them before I met Tina so I don't need a receipt!! Again She only said that Cause she knows I don't have one for those!! Which is a vindictive and bitchy thing to do!! 

They r special to me and I WILL get them back because I am not gonna reward her and let her keep them after what's she's done to us!! 

WE ARE NOT GONNA BE HER VICTIM'S!! 

She always has everyone else fight her battles for her because she is nothing but a fucking coward. She doesn't have the courage to tell me to my face that She doesn't want to be my friend anymore. So they tried putting it on my mom which proves they are both coward cuz neither of them have the guts to say it to my face!!

Chris

Okay I know I said I wouldn't date anymore of my ex's but there is one of them that never really had much of a chance. Chris is really sweet and has not been able to let go of his love for me. And recently I heard a song called Over and Over by Three days grace that reminded me of the friendship we have. He is still in love with me and I realized I never really gave our relationship a chance. With Dg and Jamie I gave the relationship one last REAL chance when neither of them deserved it. Chris does deserve that one last chance. So I'm giving us one last chance. Because I owe him that much. I owe us that much. And Maybe the reason he couldn't let me go was because he wasn't meant to. I always thought He was too nice of a guy for me and so I didn't want to give us a chance like I did with the other guys. But maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I do deserve him. Maybe he's not too good for me. And Maybe I just didn't want it at the time because I didn't want to be happy. I wanted to be alone. But now I realize that isn't what I really want. I hope it works out this time. Because out of all the guys I've dated. If there is any of them that really deserve me.......It's Chris.

Forget & Remember pt. 4 - Anakin/Hermione

Gotta Be Somebody [Kirk/Spock 2009]

as i said before i support gay people so i am posting this for one because i head the guy that plays Spock in the star trek movie is gay and also because Kirk/Spock are my new fav gay fan fic pairing. They would have been epic together and it's tragic the writers didn't think about that!! But here's a really cool vid of them.

Steven and lying

okay he finally shut up but he says he doesn't want to be my friend because he can't trust me. Whatever. I told him ONE lie and I also told him that I think it's okay to lie sometimes and because of that now he thinks I am a big liar. I told him the truth by telling him that I lie if it will spare someones feelings and because I was honest about lying he turned on me.

Sorry but 

TO BE HONEST I'M A LIAR 

is one of my favorite quotes because i do lie and make things up sometimes its part of being an writer and having imagination. Sometimes reality just isn't fun so I go inside my head to a fantasy world. 

I don't really care if he thinks that lying is wrong. And yes I will admit that sometimes lying is wrong but I also believe that in some situations it's okay to lie a little. 

I only told him ONE lie and he's still bugging me about it. 

I lied to him yeah and I'm sorry about that. 

But I can't do much more then say that I'm sorry. 

I can't change that I lied to him and I'm not gonna sit there and listen to him lecture me about it.

What gives him the right to tell me that I'm in the wrong? 

I am not in the wrong!! 

Yes it is better to tell the truth but again I think that sometimes it is okay to lie. 

Not all the time. But depending on the reason and the situation I think that sometimes it is okay to lie. 

X bf

Yeah I dated this guy for like a week or so and then dumped him and it's a good thing I did. 

I had lied to him to spare his feelings and out of fear about him knowing the truth and when he found out he started lecturing me like a child and saying that lying is wrong unless you are lying to stop someone who is suicidal. 

I'm sorry but there are times when lying is okay. If you lie to spare someone's feelings I don't think there is anything wrong with that. But he sat there saying that it's wrong and that it's better to tell the truth. 

It's not like I lied to him about me. I lied to him about my ex Jamie because I was gonna dump Jamie and so I figured there no point in telling Steve about Jamie because it would just start shit. So instead I lied to him. 

basically he said that telling him the truth would have hurt less. But my lying wouldn't have bothered him if I hadn't dumped him the same day I confessed about the lying. I am still trying to tell him he has no right to lecture me. I am not saying that lying to him was right. But I do believe there are times when it is okay to lie. 

He is not gonna change me or change my mind about lying. 

So he should stop wasting his breath cuz it is annoying me and pissing me off. 

Miley Cyrus and Disney

Yeah First of all Miley Cyrus is a whore!! There are enough Vids on youtube to prove that. I think that all she wants is attention and bad publicity to get rid of the Hannah Image. But you know what? Hannah is what made her famous and she should not be ashamed of that. And trying to get rid of the good girl image tells me that she is ashamed to be seen as a good girl. Disney will not show Hannah on T.V. anymore because they don't want people to think they support Miley and they don't want Miley getting money from the reruns. 

I swear Disney channel should just be canceled!! All the good shows are gone and none of the kids today even know what good shows are. I mean the shows that deal with real issues and teen problems. Like Lizzie McGuire and That's so Raven and the other shows that used to come on Disney Channel. 

It is meaningless now so I think they should just cancel the channel. All they have now is stupid shows that star these wanna be actors and almost everyone of them tries to come out with songs too. I wish Disney channel still was meaningful.