My Edward/ Jacob

Edward is:
1. Strong
2.Protective
3.Loving
4. Gentle
5. Tender
6. fast

Jacob is:
1.Protective
2. Cunning
3. Strong
4. Reckless
5. Daring
6. also Gentle and tender
7. Loving

So there's only one downside to this. If I'm Bella then that means that something isn't right here. Cuz Bella doesn't end up with Jacob. So how can he be both Jacob and Edward when Bella doesn't end up with Jacob? How can he be the perfect guy for me while also being the guy I won't end up with? It kinda makes no sense but then that's love i guess. I'm at the point right now where I know that I'm still in love with Jamie but one very important saying come to mind right now when I think of him. "Your everything I've ever wanted But nothing I could ever have." It means that even though I'm in the love with him I'm not sure that's gonna be enough to make the relationship work in the end. Basically I want him but I can't have him. Actually that whole Jacob Edward thing makes sense now. After that saying. If I'm Bella Edward is everything I've ever wanted and Jacob is something I can never have. So I guess it makes sense now. Or at least to me it does. The whole I want him but I can't have him thing may just be in my head but its how I feel right now and I dont want him to take that the wrong way or anything because I do love him with all my heart and I always will even if we don't get back together. And at this moment I don't want to be with anybody. Not like that anyway. It may take a while before I am over the wounds that DG made in my heart. But Like In the book New Moon today when I was Jamie the pain from the hole in my heart just went away while I was with him. So maybe he is my jacob. But again Jacob isn't the one bella end up with. Even though she is in love with him too.

Ashley Tisdale - It's Alright, It's OK with lyrics

You told meThere's no needTo talk it outCause its too lateTo proceedAnd slowlyI took your wordsAnd walked awayNo looking backI wont regret, noI will find my wayI'm brokenBut still I have to sayIt's Alright, it's OKI'm so much better without youI won't be sorryIt's Alright, it's OKSo don't you bother what I doNo matter what you sayI wont returnOur bridge has burned downI'm stronger nowIt's Alright, it's OKI'm so much better without youI won't be sorryYou played meBetrayed meYour love was nothing but a gamePortrayed a roleYou took control, II couldn't help but fallSo deepBut now I see things clearIt's Alright, it's OKI'm so much better without youI won't be sorry[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/a/ashley-tisdale-lyrics/it_s-alright-it_s-ok-lyrics.html ]It's Alright, it's OKSo don't you bother what I doNo matter what you sayI wont returnOur bridge has burned downI'm stronger nowIt's Alright, it's OKI'm so much better without youI won't be sorryDon't waste your fiction tears on meJust save them for someone in needIt's way too lateI'm closing the doorIt's Alright, OKI'm so much better without youI won't be sorryIt's Alright, it's OKSo don't you bother what I doNo matter what you sayI wont returnOur bridge has burned downI'm stronger nowIt's Alright, it's OKI'm so much better without youI won't be sorryIt's Alright, it's OKAlright, OKWithout youNo matter what you sayIt's Alright, it's OKAlright, OKWithout youI won't be sorry

WHY?

Religious people

This is my rant about religious people. Don't get me wrong I believe in god and all that but I dont go to church because I have learned a lot about religious people. Most religious people think that just because something is about fantasy that its of the devil and it lets the devil into your heart. I'm sorry I don't think that watching movies about vampires and witchcraft makes me a sinner. They are just for intertainment. And the thing that bothers me the most is that they say this and then they go and watch disney movies which is basically the same thing. Disney has fantasy in it. Like mermaids(The little Mirmaid) Fairies(Tinkerbell movies and Peter pan movies) Talking Lions(The lion king movies) Talking Mirrors and dwarfs(Snow White) flying carpets and jeanies(Aladin) and a bunch of other stuff and they let thier kids watch that and say its okay and that its good. And they are good but they are centered towards young kids. The vampire movies and witch movies and the other movies like it are centered towards the older crowd so that we have something to watch too. It's not like everyone like's to watch TV. Some people like reading books. Like I read the twilight saga so that's mainly why I like watching the movies I like to see what is in the movie from the book and what was taken out. And I ended up loving the movies. But my point is that religious don't understand nor do they want to understand why we may be into these shows. They automatically say we are sinners for watching them just cuz they have vampires and fantasy in them. Well we may like this stuff but everyone is a sinner and religous people are all hypocrytes the bible says "God is the final judge." And that it is not our right to judge others. If they really think we are all damned to hell just for watching a movie or reading a book then they are all wacked and need some serious help!!!

But I know one thing I AM SICK AND TIRED OF RELIGOUS PEOPLE JUDGING ME BECAUSE I LIKE VAMPIRE NOVELS AND WATCH VAMPIRE MOVIES.

Even my own aunt says that reading that kind of stuff is allowing the devil into my life. Which I don't believe at all. I don't believe that god would leave someone just cuz they are bored and are reading a certain book or watching a certain movie. In fact the twilight movies have nothing bad in them. They are rated PG 13 or PG 14 and again they are centered on the older crowd. But they don't even have the word Fuck in them. So they are worse movies out there. But religous people pick on twilight just because it has vampires in it and that makes it evil in thier eyes.

Do they not realize that they might get more people in the church if they tried to be a little understanding and weren't so judgemental about everything.

You don't have the right to judge something that you know nothing about.

translation: If they have never seen or read any of this stuff how do they know they won't like it? How do they know its evil if they have never given it a chance? Just because it has vampires isn't doesn't make it satanic in any way!! There's a disney movie called THE LITTLE VAMPIRE does that mean they think that's evil too? They probably do cuz it has vampires in it. That movie is a disney movie and it is a funny movie. Just because it has vampire's in it doesn't mean its not a good movie. And the same goes for the non disney stuff. Just because Twilight and other movies have vampires in it doesn't mean they aren't good movies. In fact a lot of vampire movies are really popular because they are that good. And it has nothing whatsoever to do with satan. Religious people are the only ones trying to make it about satan. They want to label everything like that as evil. When it really isn't.

My main question is WHY are they so warped about it?

Why can't they be a little understanding or god forbid even be a little open minded!!!

It the same with gay people. Religous people are disgusted by them because the bible says it's suppose to be a man and a woman together. Well you know what...............GET THE FUCK OVER IT RELIGIOUS PEOPLE!! Love is love. If a man is in love with another man then just leave them alone they are in love! Or if a girl loves another girl again leave them alone they are in love. And you do not have the right to judge them for that or try to tell them that they are wrong for loving each other. You can't control who people fall in love with. So GET OVER IT!!

I fully support gay men and lesbians that are really in love with each other.

And I am not ashamed to admit I am a christian but I am also bisexual!!!

And yet I know that other christians would sit there and say I'm not one of them because "it's a sin" To be with the same sex. Does it say that in the bible? That it's a sin the love the same sex cuz I don't remember reading that. And I am absolutley sure that you cannot show me a page of the bible that says its a sin to sleep with the same sex. So therefor they have no right to judge us for who we love nor for what we watch or read or what we do. They have no right to call us sinners just because we are open minded and have imajination!!

We have more right to judge them for being so cruel and insensitive about us. 

Breaking Dawn Trailer Official - Part 1 (HD) along with my review of the movie itself

BREAKING DAWN PART 1
I went to the movie today and saw Breaking dawn part 1. And I have one word for that movie......EPIC!!!
It was so amazing that as soon as it comes out on dvd I am going to walmart to get it. I also made a date to go see Part 2 when it comes out in theatre's. I am now dying to see part 2 because part 1 was so amazing. I am not gonna tell you what happens in it but I am gonna say that from what I've seen it's better then the book and its better then all the previous twilight films. My favorite book in the series is Eclipse but my fav movie will be breaking dawn part 1 and part 2 no doubt. I will say this......I thought it would end then Jacob imprints on Renesmee but it goes farther then that and ends in the perfect place. Right in the middle. Bella wakes up as a vampire and that's where it ends but I wont tell you any details. But it does follow the details in the book very well and some scenes from the book are even better in the movie. It's a really great movie and if you haven't seen it yet I recommend that you do. It is well worth the cost of the tickets and well worth the wait.