My Edward/ Jacob

Edward is:
1. Strong
2.Protective
3.Loving
4. Gentle
5. Tender
6. fast

Jacob is:
1.Protective
2. Cunning
3. Strong
4. Reckless
5. Daring
6. also Gentle and tender
7. Loving

So there's only one downside to this. If I'm Bella then that means that something isn't right here. Cuz Bella doesn't end up with Jacob. So how can he be both Jacob and Edward when Bella doesn't end up with Jacob? How can he be the perfect guy for me while also being the guy I won't end up with? It kinda makes no sense but then that's love i guess. I'm at the point right now where I know that I'm still in love with Jamie but one very important saying come to mind right now when I think of him. "Your everything I've ever wanted But nothing I could ever have." It means that even though I'm in the love with him I'm not sure that's gonna be enough to make the relationship work in the end. Basically I want him but I can't have him. Actually that whole Jacob Edward thing makes sense now. After that saying. If I'm Bella Edward is everything I've ever wanted and Jacob is something I can never have. So I guess it makes sense now. Or at least to me it does. The whole I want him but I can't have him thing may just be in my head but its how I feel right now and I dont want him to take that the wrong way or anything because I do love him with all my heart and I always will even if we don't get back together. And at this moment I don't want to be with anybody. Not like that anyway. It may take a while before I am over the wounds that DG made in my heart. But Like In the book New Moon today when I was Jamie the pain from the hole in my heart just went away while I was with him. So maybe he is my jacob. But again Jacob isn't the one bella end up with. Even though she is in love with him too.